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Pregnancy announcement and miscarriage

Whenever our friends and family find out they get pregnant, we get pictures of the pregnancy test.

Every time I see one of those, I can’t help but think to myself, “Wow, how can you be so cavalier? Don’t you know what can happen?”

It’s a really hurtful and sad thing to think, but as someone who has been through a miscarriage, you can’t escape those negative thoughts.

Don’t get me wrong. I have nothing against people sharing the good news, and I am nothing but completely happy for them.

It’s just that personally for me, the pregnancy test is no longer a symbol of joy. It has turned into a warning a signal: Caution ahead, be prepared for the pain.

I remember the first time we had positive pregnancy test. After two years of trying, we were so happy. I even filmed us smiling and laughing, leaving a message for our baby, the baby that we so desperately wanted for so long.

When we had our miscarriage a few weeks later, that video became like a landmine that I could accidentally step on.