Whenever our friends and family find out they get pregnant, we get pictures of the pregnancy test.
Every time I see one of those, I can’t help but think to myself, “Wow, how can you be so cavalier? Don’t you know what can happen?”
It’s a really hurtful and sad thing to think, but as someone who has been through a miscarriage, you can’t escape those negative thoughts.
Don’t get me wrong. I have nothing against people sharing the good news, and I am nothing but completely happy for them.
It’s just that personally for me, the pregnancy test is no longer a symbol of joy. It has turned into a warning a signal: Caution ahead, be prepared for the pain.
I remember the first time we had positive pregnancy test. After two years of trying, we were so happy. I even filmed us smiling and laughing, leaving a message for our baby, the baby that we so desperately wanted for so long.
When we had our miscarriage a few weeks later, that video became like a landmine that I could accidentally step on.